Perspective

The Steers are in Memphis this week doing some testing with Abby – please pray for peace and wisdom for all involved!

Abigail turned three years old May first. It feels like the last two years have flown by; whereas the first year, well really the first two months… still seem like they lasted forever.

Abby was diagnosed with a malignant brain tumor in the newborn nursery a few hours after her birth. It shattered my understanding, my faith, my reality, everything…to go from the peaks of joy at her birth to the valleys of despair that followed. The first hospital that we went to sent Abby home on Hospice care. They didn’t think she could ever beat the cancer. It was a grade four Glioblastoma. And they worried that if by some chance she did make it into remission, her quality of life would be devastating.

So when Abby was three weeks old, we were sitting at home waiting for her to die. I wish that I could say I didn’t accept their opinions. I wish I could say that I always knew she would see her healing, but I can’t. I was wallowing in my own pity at that time. My life felt so miserable, so exhausting, that just to get out of bed every day was the most I could mange. Thank God I married Michael. He wouldn’t give up, when we were signing the DNR (do not resuscitate) orders, when the Hospice nurse came to visit, he kept believing.

He believed in the promise of God that he received the night before my ultrasound. That night he said “I think it’s going to be a girl, and I think we’re supposed to name her Abigail. (We later found that Abigail means “Her Father’s Joy” in Hebrew.) That was his promise, and he would not give up.

He emailed her information to various medical centers during Abby’s time on end of life care. He prayed that if it be God’s will to attempt the surgery, that the gates of Heaven would open and we would have surgeons knocking down our door. They didn’t come knocking, but they came calling. Within two days, three surgeons had called eager to perform the surgery.

We decided on Dr. Boop in Memphis. Abby underwent the surgery when she was five weeks. She started chemotherapy at six weeks. She was given less than a ten percent chance initially. She soared through twelve rounds, finishing just before her first birthday. She has been in remission almost two years now, and as for her quality of life- it’s a miracle. She is walking, running, jumping, singing, dancing, fighting with her big brother, and wrapping her Daddy and I around her little fingers. She is the happiest child ever! We are so very, very blessed. There are many times that I have seen God work in Abby’s life. There are so many specific prayers that have been answered that I don’t think I could ever list them all. But the first answer, the first miracle came before Abby had ever been conceived. God had already written the journey out while Michael and I were still dating. Even before that He had planted the seeds of stubborness and determination in Michael, the very traits that he would need to fight for his daughter’s life. He had given Michael a promise before either of us could ever know what it would mean. It’s in the looking back that I am always amazed. It was always part of God’s plan for Abby to get sick, for Michael to fight for her, for me to trust in God and my husband even when I was getting no answers in prayer. His plan is still unfolding, and it is magnificent to behold. I don’t know for sure if Abby is cured forever, I don’t know what the future holds, but I do know that her life, our lives are all part of his perfect plan.
Rachel Steer

Point of View

The following was written by Chad Quarles, Outreach Pastor at Music City Assembly of God in Nashville, TN

Recently, my wife and I had to take our daughter, Madelynn, to Le Bonheur Children’s Hospital in Memphis, TN due to her seizure disorder. We were there almost all week. During our stay we had the opportunity to be ministered to by the organization, Habitat for Hope.

This organization, founded by Mark and Mylissa Horrocks, provides relational support, lodging and meals to families who have short and long term hospital stays in the Memphis area. When we were there I think we only bought two meals the whole week and we always had a place to rest our head. They have created a whole network of volunteers throughout the city who will take time out of their day and money out of their pockets to hang out with families in local hospitals and bring them meals. Their volunteers served with excellence and passion. It was truly remarkable. They never just dropped food off and left like they were in a hurry. They sat with us, shared our pain and offered encouragement. Without their support it would have been a lonely week because we don’t know anyone in the Memphis area.

Mark frequently reminded me that the lodging and meals are not the primary focus of the ministry. They are tools that enable them to create relationships with families during potentially difficult times in their lives. This notion continues to challenge me greatly.

For the ministries and acts of service, both inside and outside the church, in which I am involved is my focus on building meaningful relationships or on building successful organizations, tools, systems and structures? I think it is so easy to lose sight of the “point” of such ministries and in doing so lose the opportunity to truly show the love of Jesus to those the ministry intends to reach. Where is your focus?

17 kids and counting

It was beautiful yesterday in Memphis; about 75 and sunny – and in the Springtime that brings the crowds to the HFH house. Yesterday we had scads of little ones running about, and there were horsey lessons and pony rides, hikes led by the daddies, and fun to be had by all. I attempted to take a picture or two, and of course the battery on our camera died – so I decided to just go outside and enjoy it.

This week, there are 15 people staying in this house – luckily many of them are little. The Logsdon’s are here for the week with Brenna, Bella and Jalen, and the Johnsons are still downstairs and will be for at least three more weeks.

I know many of you ask “how do they do it?”, but it is true that I feel most at peace when there are lots of little ones around, happy parents getting a break and smiling in the sunshine, and laughter and good company. We truly love it and feel blessed to be in this place.

Happy Spring!

In loving memory of Westin Miller Dietz

Every single time that a baby or child that we have loved enters their rest, it breaks our hearts. Last week we said goodbye to a little boy whose family has had a significant impact on our family and on how we continue to do ministry. Westin Dietz was a little fireball of energy – there was no stopping him! He had a will of iron, and most often used it to bend hearts around his little finger. He was all sunshine and showers, all the time, and quite often within moments! He knew how to stand his ground and make his feelings known, and in the very next breath express his deep love for those around him. Thanksgiving of 2008 found the Dietzes staying with us, and we so enjoyed that time of fellowship. It was then that Westin announced that he was “living with his brothers in the woods” (ie Sam and Izaiah) and the boys had an absolute blast with Mario Kart, trains, and especially the Wall-E toy that his mother diligently drove all over Memphis to locate.

Westin’s big sister Emma has been a dear friend of Bella’s for years – and Westin’s spirit surely lives on through Miss Emma. Equal amounts of sugar and spice, she never takes no for an answer when it involves her baby brother. She knew how to love him and protect him well, and also how to love on her parents and help them as they cared for Westin. She is wise beyond her years, and although we wish this road on no sibling, we know the Lord will use the time Emma and Westin spent loving each other mightily in her future.

Hailee and Alli are Westin’s older sisters, and the brilliant Alli wants to study medicine on behalf of her brother’s battle with cancer. She is a precious, beautiful girl that has a deeply compassionate heart. Hailee is equally bright and beautiful, but also shares her mother’s strong will and spirit. She loved Westin with abandon, and although angry at times over Westin’s disease, it never trumped her love and desire to protect Westin.
Paw-paw (Chuck) and MiMi (Betty) Miller are Julie’s mom and dad, and never have there been two more dedicated grandparents. Betty and Chuck were alongside Julie and Joel every step of the way with Westin, and did everything in their power to love and care for their children and grandchildren. As we drew close to the Dietz’s we grew equally close to Chuck and Betty – always admiring their ability to continue the parenting journey into adulthood, and yet respect Joel and Julie’s role within the life of the family. Chuck’s relationship with Christ is truly unparalleled; his love for God is infectious.
And Joel’s mom Jan Adams is equally precious, and well known as the family’s own Paula Deen. An amazing chef and a great need-meeter, she bustles around making sure everyone is fed and comfortable. Jan has raised her two boys, Joel and Brock, to be men who care deeply for their families and serve God fervently.

Westin’s mom Julie has relied fully on God’s grace for her life, and has prayed her heart out to Jesus over the past 4 years on behalf of Westin and her family. She encourages all of us by saying, “I have not changed my focus and I know that God answered our prayers just not in the manner in which we had hoped. I have heard people say that Westin is an angel now, but I don’t believe that way at all. You see angels can’t know the redemptive power of Jesus, but Westin knew Jesus. Westin knew Jesus as his personal savior and he loved him with all his heart. For that reason I don’t believe he is an angel……he is worshipping with the angels, but he is worshipping because he KNOWS who HE is and what HE has done for him. Jesus took his hand on Friday and led him into eternity………His ultimate gift to my son. I can say that I was there when he took his first breaths and stole my heart and I was there when he took his last breaths and entered into eternity. At that moment (as a friend reminded me) I was very close to Jesus!!! Though the loss is overwhelming and heart wrenching…..knowing that the Creator who gave him to me is the one who came to take him home-home gives me comfort.”

Joel and Julie, our hearts continue to break for the fact that we won’t see your sweet boy again till we reach heaven – but we grieve with you not as the world grieves, but as those who hope in God. We love you.

Hope in Memphis

I know you’ve been waiting for a detailed update on the ladies retreat! Forgive me for my lateness – Mark and I are actually in Fort Myers, FL this week reconnecting with old friends and giving updates to our supporting churches down here.
For me, the best part of the ladies retreat was sharing the weekend with so many HFH moms that I have grown to love. We shared meals together, prayed together (the second night we prayed till 3am!) and laughed and shared stories. I have heard from several of the women that walls were broken down and healing was started or continued in many hearts. Probably the best way to recount the weekend is in the words of a few of the moms that were there.

…I was so grateful for the opportunity to share with Habitat for Hope, Fellowship Memphis & other moms last weekend. I left the revival feeling refreshed and revived from sharing, praying and worshipping with my sisters in Christ. I also gained a new prayer partner for the two by two ministries for the praying for Memphis!

…you had to be there in order to explain it. I just want to say that the holy spirit rain in that place and I was able to be myself in the presence of the lord and be honest with myself and the lord and knowing that you are not alone regardless of what you are going through you still have friends like Jesus and mrs. melissa and all the other women that were on the retreat with us.I just want to thank god for all of my new friends, thank you all so much.

…thanks again for an incredible weekend, I came home refreshed and exhausted. It was so wonderful to meet some amazing women and get to know the ones I already knew a little better. I hope everyone is doing well, and is enjoying the season that they are in now a little better now that we were taught by Priscilla to enjoy the season. I kept counting down the rounds of chemo my son has left, thinking I just can’t wait for it to be done. But now I am trying to appreciate what we are going through now and when the next season comes I will be thrilled, but I won’t have regrets that I didn’t enjoy what I am going through now. It was great to be with women that understands what I am going through as a mother, wife, Christian, and friend. I found that many of us just don’t have the support at home from people that truly understand.

My sincere thanks to all of you that were a part of making this weekend happen – our donors for making it possible, Tona Ottinger, Missy Taylor and Heather McGugan for their help, and of course my sweet husband for giving me the time I needed to work on this and praying over me the whole way.